(blog from March 9, 2012)
I am in Pattaya, Thailand and feeling so free and light of the burdens and hurt I carried from my last experience in Thailand. God promised me redemption if I came, and I found it on one of the darkest streets in Pattaya.
Let me back track for a moment. I came to Phuket, Thailand in November 2010, on the World Race. I felt sick and was barely able to stay standing most days. Satan attacked me physically, spiritually, and emotionally everyday. I have never had to fight so hard to get through a month, and I never wanted to return to Thailand.
Never say never to God.
Two months after returning from the WR, I attended Iris Ministries Harvest School in Mozambique. It's a mission training school led by Heidi and Rolland Baker. I was so confused why I was there. I didn't want to do ministry. I didn't want to be around so many people. I didn't want to be around children(that was the big shocker). However, over the course of two months, God restored me and was preparing me to return to SE Asia.
"I am not strong enough God! I can't do it!" I said through my tears. I was afraid.
God showed me that this was why he is taking me back, because I can't do it alone. I need to depend on him. The Iris team is setting up a base in Thailand and Cambodia. I feel God calling me to serve in Cambodia, but he wanted me to come to Thailand first.
I went through the same motions, why am I here...God, I don't understand?
The first week in Bangkok was hard; I felt the spiritual warfare much differently. It was subtle and deceptive. Our team split and I came to Pattaya with eight others. The other night, we went near Walking Street(a street with lots of bars), to visit The Bridge, a center for children to come at night while their parents are working in the bars. It was there that everything changed. We prayed over a little girl, who has CP. I got to hold her and help her eat. Something broke off me in the spirit, I felt it, and my team noticed. I can't explain it. I felt joy, peace, and love for this little girl and found redemption for Thailand in my heart. It came in the form of a child.
The next night we went to worship and walk through the bars on Soi 6, I saw hope and light for the first time. God is redeeming Thailand and has brought redemption to me. He delivers on his promises.
The darkness will not have a hold on this place much longer! Praise the Lord as he continues to do MARVELOUS things!!
I am in Pattaya, Thailand and feeling so free and light of the burdens and hurt I carried from my last experience in Thailand. God promised me redemption if I came, and I found it on one of the darkest streets in Pattaya.
Let me back track for a moment. I came to Phuket, Thailand in November 2010, on the World Race. I felt sick and was barely able to stay standing most days. Satan attacked me physically, spiritually, and emotionally everyday. I have never had to fight so hard to get through a month, and I never wanted to return to Thailand.
Never say never to God.
Two months after returning from the WR, I attended Iris Ministries Harvest School in Mozambique. It's a mission training school led by Heidi and Rolland Baker. I was so confused why I was there. I didn't want to do ministry. I didn't want to be around so many people. I didn't want to be around children(that was the big shocker). However, over the course of two months, God restored me and was preparing me to return to SE Asia.
"I am not strong enough God! I can't do it!" I said through my tears. I was afraid.
God showed me that this was why he is taking me back, because I can't do it alone. I need to depend on him. The Iris team is setting up a base in Thailand and Cambodia. I feel God calling me to serve in Cambodia, but he wanted me to come to Thailand first.
I went through the same motions, why am I here...God, I don't understand?
The first week in Bangkok was hard; I felt the spiritual warfare much differently. It was subtle and deceptive. Our team split and I came to Pattaya with eight others. The other night, we went near Walking Street(a street with lots of bars), to visit The Bridge, a center for children to come at night while their parents are working in the bars. It was there that everything changed. We prayed over a little girl, who has CP. I got to hold her and help her eat. Something broke off me in the spirit, I felt it, and my team noticed. I can't explain it. I felt joy, peace, and love for this little girl and found redemption for Thailand in my heart. It came in the form of a child.
The next night we went to worship and walk through the bars on Soi 6, I saw hope and light for the first time. God is redeeming Thailand and has brought redemption to me. He delivers on his promises.
The darkness will not have a hold on this place much longer! Praise the Lord as he continues to do MARVELOUS things!!
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